I've taken a couple of good hits over the last few months, some brought on myself and others from outside sources. Today as I was walking home from a late movie I had a moment of total and complete clarity: I have no self-worth right now. Hard to say when it started to trickle away and hard to guess when I'll build it back up but currently I'm having a tough time with putting any stock in me. It's a weird thing to admit to yourself and it feels a bit teenage emo kid but sometimes you just have to take notice of the way you are feeling so that you can change things.
Last night I was feeling so unconfident that I refused to approach a group of fellas that a friend had been speaking with, and all because I did not believe they would have any interest in chatting with me.
Like I said, I don't know when the switch clicked but it did and so now I am in the process of getting my confidence back because it's a lonely world without it.
In other news I changed my hair again:
2 comments:
i like the hair!
and i'm betting the self-confidence will show up again :) we all have moments in our lives where we go through that, i think, and it always comes back.
Funny, I've been feeling the same way lately. Isn't it funny how we deal with these feelings? I, of course, do whatever I can to bolster said confidence-- hanging out, fun times, drinking, smoking, generally self destructive behavior so that I can rage, rage rage into the dying of the light.
What a facade.
You are beautiful and wonderful. And I love the hair. And that picture is funny as hell... looks like we're both dealing with our hair. :)
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